Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Here I am, writing in the aftermath of the Chinese New Year. Gobbling up tons of 'ba kuas' and my hands like magnet, always drawn towards the red packets, receiving it with glee.
Speaking about Chinese tradition, I heard that on the 7th day of the Lunar New Year, it's everybody's birthday. One year older for everyone and seemingly a year of maturity added on to us. They call it 'Ren Ri', or literal translation, Man's Day.
Age. When we're younger, we wished we could be a little older. Like the movie '13 Going on 30', don't we all wish it happened at some point? And when we're a little older, I guess we would've wished we could turn back time.
But looking at where I am now, I really have no idea. It seemed I belong nowhere. Neither am I young enough to lead a carefree live and everyday's worry is just about today's homework and tomorrow's practical test.
Nor am I old enough to look back and being blessed with the gift of retrospect.
Stuck in a middle of a crossroad, it's not only an 'age' thing. A million and one question clouds my mind. No longer can I sweep it under the carpet like when I was younger and say 'leave it to when I'm a little older'. Neither can a time machine bring me forward and look at the present with hindsight.
I must live this moment, this so called 'young adult' moment. From now on, it's a one way road down to a place where your decision brings.
During CNY Visitation
2nd Auntie: Hey! How're you!? Gonna apply for university? Any girlfriends? Are you going to find a job? Economy looks bleak, eh?
Me: Well... I'm considering at the moment. Yes.... but life should be more than this....much more...
Speaking about Chinese tradition, I heard that on the 7th day of the Lunar New Year, it's everybody's birthday. One year older for everyone and seemingly a year of maturity added on to us. They call it 'Ren Ri', or literal translation, Man's Day.
Age. When we're younger, we wished we could be a little older. Like the movie '13 Going on 30', don't we all wish it happened at some point? And when we're a little older, I guess we would've wished we could turn back time.
But looking at where I am now, I really have no idea. It seemed I belong nowhere. Neither am I young enough to lead a carefree live and everyday's worry is just about today's homework and tomorrow's practical test.
Nor am I old enough to look back and being blessed with the gift of retrospect.
Stuck in a middle of a crossroad, it's not only an 'age' thing. A million and one question clouds my mind. No longer can I sweep it under the carpet like when I was younger and say 'leave it to when I'm a little older'. Neither can a time machine bring me forward and look at the present with hindsight.
I must live this moment, this so called 'young adult' moment. From now on, it's a one way road down to a place where your decision brings.
During CNY Visitation
2nd Auntie: Hey! How're you!? Gonna apply for university? Any girlfriends? Are you going to find a job? Economy looks bleak, eh?
Me: Well... I'm considering at the moment. Yes.... but life should be more than this....much more...
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